jadenbane

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 00:06:52 GMT

I just finished up doing one of those unabashedly wierd "Parker Adey" sort of things. I've been on a really strong I Ching binge these past couple days, and I just got back from meeting up with someone I'd only met once before to harvest some of her yarrow plants. Am I the only seventeen year old male who is interested in collecting garden weeds for the purpose of philosophical enlightenment?

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 22:08:10 GMT

I spent most of my day chilling at the library. I was there from ~10:00 until 16:00~17:00. Good times were had by all. I read a lot of The Music of Primes by Marcus du Sautoy. I wasn't terribly interested in it to begin with, I had only picked it up to check my answers to a question, but in the end I was kinda hooked because I think I might actually understand the Reimann Hypothesis. du Sautoy's watering down of mathematical terminology was a little tough to stomach but I suppose he had to sacrafice some techincal stuff to get broader readership. I got a look at Gamma: Exploring Euler's Constant by Julian Havil aswell, Gamma looks like a much better book to keep sharp with, it's much more technical. I'll probably bite into it when Madi and I get hom from Peterborough. Oh yea, Madi and I are heading out tommorow morning to go University-ing. Sweet!

I finished highschool, the last exam period boss was hard.

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 15:30:27 GMT

So I just got out of highschool, with marks a little higher than I thought. All in all, it was a good time - but I think my year book quote sums it up the best.

Estragon/Vladimir: Well, shall we go?
Vladimir/Estragon: Yes, let's go.
They do not move.

Now I'll be moving a long way away to go learn many great and interesting things.

I got this from the Central Math Department

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 20:37:46 GMT

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 02:12:37 GMT

I just got a shiny 'new' set of Harvard Classics. They're from 1909; Ninety-seven years young I suppose. Anyway, totally beutiful collection which I look forward to gormandizing this summer. They've found a new home in my window frame and they help block out all unwanted light.

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 02:55:38 GMT

I say it alot, I know, but I am getting really tired of my own inefficiencies. I can't stand they way I procrastinate, the way I put things off. I don't know why I haven't changed yet. Maybe I blame myself too much - Or maybe not enough. My parents raised me, they must have had some influence on me, but I could be just rationalizing away my own short comings. It's getting a late... So I'm cutting this rant off. I'll explain tommorow when I awake.

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 10:48:40 GMT

I've come to avoid my step father like the plague. I just woke up, and when I went to grab some food he gave me this really mean and snarly good morning, like I'd started pissing him off already. I lost my appetite so fast... So instead of breakfest I'm having the a couple caffiene pills, a multivitamin, and carbonated diet pomegranate juice, with a side order of Vivaldi. I fucking rock.

Some random musings...

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 15:19:04 GMT

Rent and watch Primer. It's brilliant.

Holy fuck....

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 21:41:26 GMT

They've left me at work without anything to do, egad! I did four hours work in an hour and a half; shoot me now!

Here is the Dada-ist poem that came out of my cleaning the keyboard.

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Read it bitches.

Sun, 28 May 2006 17:02:53 GMT

If I don't have this stuff in my pockets then I simply cannot function. Note: My stopwatch and Staedler eraser are missing from the photo.

Sun, 28 May 2006 03:33:06 GMT

Holy shit. I can't believe Madi just showed me these. I can remember watching those commercials with Kyle and just about shitting myself. Actually, I can remember shitting myself.

Sat, 27 May 2006 18:43:59 GMT

The trouble with integers is that we have examined only the very small ones. Maybe all the exciting stuff happens at really big numbers, ones we can't even begin to think about in any very definite way. Our brains have evolved to get us out of the rain, find where the berries are, and keep us from getting killed. Our brains did not evolve to help us grasp really large numbers or to look at things in a hundred thousand dimensions. ~Ronald L. Graham

The mathematics are usually considered as being the very antipodes of Poesy. Yet Mathesis and Poesy are of the closest kindred, for they are both works of the imagination. ~Thomas Hill

The temperature of Heaven can be rather accurately computed. Our authority is Isaiah 30:26, "Moreover, the light of the Moon shall be as the light of the Sun and the light of the Sun shall be sevenfold, as the light of seven days." Thus Heaven receives from the Moon as much radiation as we do from the Sun, and in addition 7*7 (49) times as much as the Earth does from the Sun, or 50 times in all. The light we receive from the Moon is one 1/10,000 of the light we receive from the Sun, so we can ignore that.... The radiation falling on Heaven will heat it to the point where the heat lost by radiation is just equal to the heat received by radiation, i.e., Heaven loses 50 times as much heat as the Earth by radiation. Using the Stefan-Boltzmann law for radiation, (H/E) temperature of the earth (-300K), gives H as 798K (525C). The exact temperature of Hell cannot be computed.... [However] Revelations 21:8 says "But the fearful, and unbelieving...shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone." A lake of molten brimstone means that its temperature must be at or below the boiling point, 444.6C. We have, then, that Heaven, at 525C is hotter than Hell at 445C. ~From Applied Optics, vol. 11, A14, 1972

Talking with Ghani

Thu, 25 May 2006 15:41:40 GMT

I just walked with Ghani, the school psychology, he's a pretty relaxed dude and I really enjoy his company. Ghani is pretty smart and insightful, and he has a very interesting point of view as he is a Nigerian, and can often put a different spin on things. His ideas were pretty shocking but I think they make sense, he told me:

To stop worrying about my parents, I don't derserve that kind of burden and they're dealing with their own problems.

That I need to think positively about my academic succeses and stop feeling like a failure.

To write a piece "What Does Life Mean?"

The exam is arrived.

Tue, 23 May 2006 14:07:02 GMT

The English exam just came off in the way that knife fights often do... Completely fucked it up, my time was predominately spent recopying that filth which I had already excreted up onto the page... It was pretty vilifying. Now I am skipping drama, and losing marks, and sanity!

Tiredly, I do rest.

Tue, 23 May 2006 02:32:54 GMT

*big yawn*

Ready for bed I suppose. I'm all tuckered out from a day of doing nothing in particular... I feel pseudo prepared for English; that isn't to say I've stopped pulling my hair out of my head or anything... But I feel pseudo prepared. I'm gunna crash now... G'night internet people.

Some thoughts on King Lear / Frankenstein

Mon, 22 May 2006 23:57:36 GMT

"Justice will prevail."

Justice does not prevail in either piece, and we are only left with the vague hope of better things to come.

In Lear: We hope Edgar will go on to rule the kingdom, and make amends.
In Frankenstein: We hope the Demon dies, and that Victor's notes are lost.

In Lear justice prevails, but only as the hope and possibility of something better. With Regan and Cordelia dead, Edmund vanquished, and Oswald slain, there are no more apparent causes for Lear's suffering. He knows that his wicked daughters have met their end, and that his kingdom is safe from their tyrannical wrath. In his last lines he (erronously) thinks Cordelia may be alive, and thus he dies happy in his madness.

Frankenstein is rampant with injustice. William's juvenile death, Justine's unjust hanging, everything seems to be bad until we see Victor safely released from prison, scotch-free. We are left unsure as to whether or not the Daemon dies, and all is left up in the air.

"Flies to wanton boys are we to the gods, they kill us for their sport" -Earl of Gloucester
"The gods are just and of our pleasent vices make instruments to plague us." -Edgar son of Gloucester

Both pieces are tragedies, where we are to learn from the moral injustices of the characters, and thus walk away purified.

"The most enviable of human gifts is the ability to reason clearly."

Neither King Lear, nor Frankenstein reason clearly; neither character thinks about the consequences of their actions, and are made to suffer the results of their poor choices. Both characters would be envious of someone who have clearer reason.

In Lear: Lear acts on whim and banishes Kent, and disowns Cordelia; leading to his eventual demise.
In Frankenstein: Frankenstein creates monster without first reasoning what it will do in the world.

Lear banishes Kent, and Cordelia much too fast and doesn't think about what he is doing. He flies into a rage at once and doesn't want to reason, even with Kent, his trusted friend. Everyone in the court acknowledges how wrong and illsuited this is.
Everything that Lear does in Act I Scene I comes toppling down on him thourought the rest of the play.
In Frankenstein, Victor creates his monster without giving a single thought to the reprecutuons of his actions.
The monster Victor creates in Chapter 4 undoes him throughtout the rest of the piece.

"Freedom is the key to happiness."

Only when entirely rid of obligations, and free from their own concerns and realities, do either Lear or Frankenstein seem happy truly happy.

In Lear: Lear must go mad before he can appear before Edgar and Gloucester joking and happy like a child, senile in his old age.
In Frankenstein: Only when Frankenstein is unburdened by the monster can he truely enjoy himself and see the beauty of nature.

The Skeletal Essay Organizer.

Move from a specific to a topic, to a theme, to a thesis.

Theme, statement about the topic.
Thesis, "an analytic statement about the theme answering a why or how."

#1 - Specifics with page refs.
#2 - The how (How is this connected with the text? Why does it come about?)
#3 - The why (What is the intent of this specific?)
#4 - Why you think the specfic relevant.
#5 - The result of the specfic.
#6 - Significance towards your thesis. Your topic sentence.

#1 - #3 Come from the text.
#4 - #6 Come from your mind.

In laying out your paragraoh, #6 comes first, then #1 - #5.

Sat, 20 May 2006 01:59:49 GMT

I just hopped on the bus with this female. I refrain from calling her a woman, or a girl, or a bitch because of her somewhat strange poltical views. She was shooting off to her friends about how much she hates male sex offenders, and how if a man hurts a woman that pisses her off. She said she can deal with murderers, thieves, and tax evaders, but men who hurt women piss her off. I think one of her friends caught her on this one-sidedness and remarked about women who hurt men. She replied by saying "Well if she's got a good reason...."

Wed, 17 May 2006 20:31:43 GMT

I really don't know what's going on in my life anymore. I've kinda given up trying to piece things together. Everything simply seems to have spiralled out of hand I suppose; I can't control any of it. KC keeps telling me that I only play by my rules and that I'm disrespectful of authority etc. knowing what I know now about the way I act... I really have to agree. For example, right now I am skipping out of class, writing an entry on my laptop, when my physics class is right outside the auditorium doors. The lights are off and I'm listening to The Riderless. Why am I doing this? Well I'm not sure, I'm hiding from the substitute teacher, and indulging myself at the same time. I'm not doing out it out of some wierd machivellian badassness or anything. I hope no one minds. This sort of self fufillling prophecy shit really bugs me.

I'm also having the same paranoia/memory loss issues as before. When I got to school (late of course) I couldn't remember the day, and I thought it was Wednesday Day X Period 2. I remembered yesterday was Day 1, thus today must be Day 2, and I went to look at my Period 2 class. Well it wasn't my Period 2 class at all, there were a bunch of Grade 10s in the class. Mrs. Bloomfield just looked at me funny and I ran out. I checked my other possible classes, Drama, French, etc... Wasn't any of them either... I was flipping out. I sat down and read some of the this GNU guide I downloaded of the LDP, brilliant stuff. GNU is deep-voodoo when seen through the eyes of an ex-Windows-user. The step up is massive, and the learning curve is so rewarding. Every little secret I discover leaves me in awe... Wow that was ridiculous. My apologies.

Anyway, I simply look forward to seeing Madi this afternoon, and maybe chowing down on some Pad-Thai. Am I pathetic for that?

Why is Period 1 an hour and a half long on a late start day?

Just a couple things to think about

Wed, 17 May 2006 01:44:30 GMT

It's not about the _____________ it's about:

-dinosaurs
-ju jubes in bed
-mad ninja fights in public
-monster faces
-photographing the dearly departed
-photographing the dear Roy
-movie nights
-having nap time together in a twin sized bed
-mad ranting and explications
-Awesome fathers
-(And the not so awesome step-fathers)
-Tea and pad-thai
-Tea from a pot and the awkward billiard ball
-Crazy pets who intrude
-Crazy mothers who know not to
-Sharing movies and music with each other
-Wandering around in bookshops
-Milkshakes at Prince Al's
-Corey (I love Corey!)
-Corey loving Fred Astair
-Free dance lessons
-Wandering about downtown, and knowing every alley
-Tubs of candy from Wal-Mart
-Eating it with chop-sticks
-French music
-Picking eye lashes off his face
-Having food in your braces
-Braces getting caught on pants. (On the knee you perv.)
-Hobo-counting (16, 21)
-Sisters who love Chinese food
-And scream out menus
-Tickling and wedgies (More for the tickling)
-GTalk (even though it remains unused to this day.)
-Quoting Shakespeare
-Titus
-Internet Penis!
-Pill bottles rattling
-"Take your pills Madi!"
-An ultimatum that worked out... Really well.
-The fact that I never get bored of his face
-The Pineapple Boyfriend (I love the Pineapple Boyfriend too!)
-Knowing next year will work out fine
-Staying at home so I'll have mre money to go visit him
-Narnia.
-Books and buckles
-Curious facts about bears
-Her name's "Moo"
-Correcting my grammar
-Being sure I needn't beat myself up
-Playing with his hair
-The every bork'd bathroom
-Knowing we've come this far after things almost didn't work out

English Exam Questions

Tue, 16 May 2006 21:20:51 GMT

ENG 4U
May 2006
In-Class Essay Topics
20% of Final Grade

Students will be given one of the questions below on the day of writing to complete in class.

No notes, dictionaries or aids of any kinds may be used.

Please answer neatly in pen on foolscap using one side of the page and writing every other line.

Be sure to make specific references to the literature in developing your answer.

Answers are evaluated according to the rubric shown in class.

Your teacher will specify which works you may use in your answer:

King Lear, Handmaid's Tale, Antigone, Oedipus, Frankenstein

"Justice will prevail." Evaluate the application of this statement by referring to two of the works your teacher specifies.

"The most enviable of human gifts is the ability to reason clearly." Evaluate the application of this statement by referring to two of the works your teacher specifies.

"Freedom is the key to happiness." Evaluate the application of this statement by referring to two of the works your teacher specifies.

Said about me...

Tue, 16 May 2006 02:39:02 GMT

justwords:
It's like a hope/optimism about experience. You enjoy the fruits of life.
justwords:
There are other things as well, but that is a pretty dominant persuasion.

I <3 Roy.

Mon, 15 May 2006 03:44:26 GMT

I don't really know what to say about Roy Mcdonald, there are just so many different ways to talk about him. I think of him at once as my grandfather, my teacher, my friend, and my coworker. Roy and I share no blood ties, no scholastic ties, no social ties, and no professional ties; when you look at it we're just two guys who bump into each other. But that doesn't mean he isn't important to me; Roy is probably one of the most important people in my life.

Fifty one years my senior Roy is probably one of my closest friends. Since we met, we've been having coffee semi regularily, and we've started getting together on a triweekly basis. When we get coffee I'm not sure we really talk, or chat; for some reason confer seems to be the verb of choice.

I'm sorry I can't finish this right now...

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 21:03:38 GMT

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 21:07:40 GMT

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 16:15:43 GMT

I'm pretty sure I just failed Gr. 12 English. Funky, no?

I like The Frivolous Theorem of Arithmetic. I also really enjoy Titus Andronicus.

*vomit*

I think I am going to go grab a tea or something.