I really don't know what's going on in my life anymore. I've kinda given up trying to piece things together. Everything simply seems to have spiralled out of hand I suppose; I can't control any of it. KC keeps telling me that I only play by my rules and that I'm disrespectful of authority etc. knowing what I know now about the way I act... I really have to agree. For example, right now I am skipping out of class, writing an entry on my laptop, when my physics class is right outside the auditorium doors. The lights are off and I'm listening to The Riderless. Why am I doing this? Well I'm not sure, I'm hiding from the substitute teacher, and indulging myself at the same time. I'm not doing out it out of some wierd machivellian badassness or anything. I hope no one minds. This sort of self fufillling prophecy shit really bugs me.

I'm also having the same paranoia/memory loss issues as before. When I got to school (late of course) I couldn't remember the day, and I thought it was Wednesday Day X Period 2. I remembered yesterday was Day 1, thus today must be Day 2, and I went to look at my Period 2 class. Well it wasn't my Period 2 class at all, there were a bunch of Grade 10s in the class. Mrs. Bloomfield just looked at me funny and I ran out. I checked my other possible classes, Drama, French, etc... Wasn't any of them either... I was flipping out. I sat down and read some of the this GNU guide I downloaded of the LDP, brilliant stuff. GNU is deep-voodoo when seen through the eyes of an ex-Windows-user. The step up is massive, and the learning curve is so rewarding. Every little secret I discover leaves me in awe... Wow that was ridiculous. My apologies.

Anyway, I simply look forward to seeing Madi this afternoon, and maybe chowing down on some Pad-Thai. Am I pathetic for that?

Why is Period 1 an hour and a half long on a late start day?